A little more than a month ago, I was in the worst shape of my life. I was honestly at the lowest point that I’ve ever seen myself, but I’m happy to say that I’m making it through. The intrusive thoughts and the anxiety that comes with them are not as strong, and lawd does that feel like a blessing, because I getting to the end of my rope.
If you guys feel like you need extra help, do not be afraid to seek out help if you feel like your family or other people around you aren’t listening. There are tons of resources out there, there are suicide hotlines, and there is voluntary hospitalization (usually a three day stay) which I would highly recommend to anyone that is going through a tough time. Again, like I always say, don’t give up! Better days will come.
National Suicide Hotline: 1800 273 8255
Rather than sit around and think about those who could care less about you, get up, do something! Grab a pen, put it to paper, and get to know yourself. You’re worthy. Forget about what they say about you. They don’t live your life. They haven’t been through what you’ve been through. Don’t let anyone dictate your life. I know it’s hard, trust me, I do. When you start to feel anger, ask yourself why? Why am I angry? Why does it matter? You have a full life ahead of you, and like T.D. Jakes says “Unlock your mind. Their perception of you doesn’t matter, your perception of yourself does!”
In the video above, you will see best selling author, Eckhart Tolle, discuss how, while on the brink of suicide, he was able to form a new life for himself. He didn’t actually change his life, he changed his thinking about his life. He says that what rang a bell in his mind was the phrase: “I can’t live with myself any longer.” Who is that self? Is there more than one you? I mean, while on this journey, I have come across some great literature and videos of individuals who have been close to the edge, but found a way to see the truth, and silence the negativity in their minds.
Hope you guys check out the video, and continue to check out more like it!
I have decided to spend a lot of time alone. Not with the intent to cower away from the outside world, but to actually get to know myself outside of my worries. During this time, I have also been reading in order to gain some type of perspective on life, or what we think is life. While watching a Big Sean interview on The Breakfast Club, this book The Four Agreements came up in conversation, and he talked about how this book helped him deal with a lot of negativity that was going on around him. Once the interview was over, decided to buy the book.
Don Miguel Ruiz is the author of this great book the details how simple life is, honestly. He gives his readers four agreements to live by in order to allow for us to make our lives easier. He says that we are already free, we just can’t see it. His words opened my eyes to ideas, or truths as I see them, that I always wondered about, but cowered away from in fear that I wasn’t making any sense. I will definitely be making more posts as I read more books similar to this one, but for now, here are the four agreements that Ruiz talks about.
- Be impeccable with your word– Don’t use your words to be demeaning to yourself, first and foremost, as well as others. He says, we are the biggest abusers of ourselves, because we judge our actions, and we put limits upon our capabilities. Use the word to break all those teeny, tiny agreements that make you suffer.
- Don’t take anything personally– Don’t take what others say about you personally. Most of the time, anything that someone says about you comes from their own pain and misfortune. You take it personally, because you agree with whatever was said. As soon as you agree, the poison goes through you, and you are trapped in the dream of hell.
- Don’t make assumptions- We make an assumption, we misunderstand, we take it personally, and we end up creating a whole big drama for nothing.
- Always do your best– You don’t have to be angry with yourself if you don’t keep the four agreements, just do your best. Everything is alive and changing all the time, so your best will sometimes be high quality, and other times it will not be as good.