291- What Happened…

Is that I have been feeling so much better! I know that I haven’t posted in a while and that’s because things have slowly but surely gotten better over these past 2 months. I am so happy to say that recovery has been going so well. My new therapist is awesome! I got TWO new jobs and I can finally walk outside without my heart falling into my shoes! Remember when that was all I wanted? Man, I know that my journey is not yet over, but honestly I feel good when I wake up in the morning. I feel happy and truly blessed. Guys, like I have always said, progress comes in time. Don’t ever give up the fight! 

Good night.

Day 93

Song of the night: Gaya by Michael Brun ft. J. Perry and Lakou Mizik

This song is a Haitian song written and performed by Haitian artists. It falls under the racine genre of music, which literally means roots. If you listen to it, you can hear a mixture of drums, horns, hand claps, and more modern rhythms that Michael Brun is so great at bringing to life. The song talks about preserving Haitian culture, appreciating where we come from, and appreciating our cultural riches, rather than the literal poverty that pervades parts of the island. J. Perry specifically says: “Too rich to be poor,” which I believe to be the epitome of Haitian culture. 

This song is a great one. If you’re interested in Haitian culture, take a listen. If you’re interested in good music, please, take a listen.

Good night!

Sweet, Sweet, Cuppa Tea

There’s nothing that I love more than a steaming cup of tea right before I go to sleep. Tonight, I’m enjoying a mixture of vanilla spice and honey lavender. I drink the Yogi brand of tea, and what I love about this brand is that there are relaxation techniques given on the side of the box.

For me, drinking tea is especially vital when I’m experiencing a great deal of anxiety. It calms my nerves as well as my thoughts. If you guys are suffering from anxiety, a nice cup of tea would be a great way to start your day. You’ll get to work or school with a very relaxed state of mind, and the way you start your morning can heavily determine how the rest of your day will be.

Real Love

Hey everyone, I’m not a poet by any means, but I was feeling inspired, so I thought I’d switch it up.

“Real Love”

He is

Sweet kisses on the neck,

The fresh scent of rainfall on dry soil,

a warm hug.

He is

the sound of beautiful melodies

that speak to my

soul,

joy in the hearts of children at the start of summer,

soft touch of hands

around my waist.

He is sunrise.

I am sunset.

He is a

wonder in my world.

A world within my fantasies.

He is not real, but

I am

ready, worthy, and able

to let real love enter my life.

 

Picture from: http://www.pinterest.com

 

Been a While.

Hey everyone.

I’ve been meaning to write, I really have, but recently, I’ve been feeling very differently. I haven’t been feeling much like myself, and it’s the oddest thing. My laptop screen is blaring white light in my face, and I can’t seem to get out of the dark, murky corners of my own mind. I mean, what the hell is this?

I had to get on here, and remind myself of why I started this in the first place: to cultivate wonderful vibes in my own life, as well as in the lives of others. You, as my reader, whenever you’re feeling like the embodiment of darkness, I want you to remind yourself of everything that’s damn right awesome in your life. Remind yourself of your own potential, of your own light.

Above, I have posted an image of some special words that a friend wrote to me. I wanted to share them with you guys, because I don’t want you to suffocate from your own negativity. We all have things to work on, and obstacles to overcome, which is the beauty of life, and echoing the words of J. Cole, there’s beauty in the struggle.

Writing this isn’t to say that we will be magically freed from our problems, but it is to say that just because we’re feeling down right now does not mean that we’ll be down forever.

Let’s Not Waste Time

I got the itch again. The itch to write. I have no real direction for this post, but I feel the need to satisfy this incessant voice in my mind that’s telling me to release some type of energy with my fingers flying across a keyboard, cell phone keyboard that is.

 

I feel the light breeze of the ceiling fan across my face as I lie in bed replaying my whole day in my head. Throughout my thoughts there are moments here and there where I, now, wish I would have kept my mouth shut, or that I would have acted differently, but right in this second…I can’t change any of it. Does this ever happen to you? I feel that a lot of what holds us back are our regrets over silly things. When you think about it, we waste our energy focusing on the past when we should, in fact, focus on the present moment.

I can tell you now that in the past I have wasted so much time thinking about events in my life that I could not change. Honestly, it got so tiring to replay the hurt and pain over and over…and over again. For me, it had gotten to such a point that I catapulted myself into a dark tunnel of depression without knowing how I got there.

So, I say, when you feel like your past is controlling your present, do something productive (write a blog post)! Do something you love! I mean, get up, blast some music, and dance if you have to! Let’s not waste time on thoughts that will bring tears, but let’s create memories that will bring smiles.

 

 

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