Oh no. It’s happening again. The ghost of a past friendship has come back to haunt me. I mean, the memories hijack my brain with absolutely no warning, and just like that, I’m driven down a path of negative emotions and anger. How is this even possible? I know that giving way to these feelings is doing nothing but tearing into the progress that I have made in my personal life, but for some reason, I can’t help but indulge in these, excuse my French, shitty thoughts.
But, really? If I have honestly gotten over these betrayals like I tell myself I have, would they truly have the power to even cause the slightest rift within my mind?
No. They wouldn’t.
I’m sick of exorcising the same demons time after time, only to have them possess my whole being again. I know I’m not the only one who’s felt this way, and I won’t be the last. What I will do is free myself of the negativity every chance I get.
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ohh, and it’s hard to dance with the devil on your back, so shake him off! These are the words to one of my favorite songs, “Shake It Out” by Florence and the Machine. I put these lyrics in here to say that if you’re ever feeling like I am, listen to one of your favorite songs. Listen to the words and lift yourself out of the dumps. When you’re ready, get your tush up, close your eyes, and dance around shamelessly, unapologetically, freely.
Because, trust me, once you open your eyes, the ghosts will have faded into nothing.
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As I lie next to my mother, I feel her warmth envelop my whole being. It has been two months since the last time I have seen her and even though I arrived home from college yesterday, I didn’t feel like I was really home until I was able to wrap my arms around her.
Right here, next to her, I am invincible. I am at peace. I am safe.
I live eight hours away from home, so you can only imagine how it feels not to see her very often. Granted, I don’t have to listen to her nag me about what my plans for the future are, I could never deny that she is truly my beacon of light.
When I’m going through a load of crap away from home, she helps me through it over the phone. Although she can’t wipe my tears with her hands, she does so with her words. Words that seep into my body and echo through my spirit. Words that scrub the pain away until it seems like the smallest particle of
I bring this to you to say that if you feel as though your light is dimming, go hug someone that makes you feel good. My person is my mom, for you it can be your dad, your best friend, your boyfriend/ girlfriend, your child.
The best thing about it, is that you don’t even have to say what’s wrong if you’re not in the mood, because sometimes all it takes is being around someone who truly cares for you to lift you out of a funk. Don’t let negativity bring you down, allow for whoever that person is for you to recharge your spirit with good vibes.
I got the itch again. The itch to write. I have no real direction for this post, but I feel the need to satisfy this incessant voice in my mind that’s telling me to release some type of energy with my fingers flying across a keyboard, cell phone keyboard that is.
I feel the light breeze of the ceiling fan across my face as I lie in bed replaying my whole day in my head. Throughout my thoughts there are moments here and there where I, now, wish I would have kept my mouth shut, or that I would have acted differently, but right in this second…I can’t change any of it. Does this ever happen to you? I feel that a lot of what holds us back are our regrets over silly things. When you think about it, we waste our energy focusing on the past when we should, in fact, focus on the present moment.
I can tell you now that in the past I have wasted so much time thinking about events in my life that I could not change. Honestly, it got so tiring to replay the hurt and pain over and over…and over again. For me, it had gotten to such a point that I catapulted myself into a dark tunnel of depression without knowing how I got there.
So, I say, when you feel like your past is controlling your present, do something productive (write a blog post)! Do something you love! I mean, get up, blast some music, and dance if you have to! Let’s not waste time on thoughts that will bring tears, but let’s create memories that will bring smiles.
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I look into the depth of the pool with fear in my eyes. From where I’m standing, this pool is just a chlorine filled pit of doom. I wonder to myself over and over: what the heck am I doing here? At this point, I am 20 years old, and I am standing at the foot of the pool within my university’s gym, hesitantly waiting for adult swim lessons to begin.
This was a year ago, and yes, you’ve read correctly, I didn’t learn how to swim until adulthood. As scared as I was then, it was one of the best things that I had done for myself.
Whenever I’m feeling low, water is truly the best remedy for my negative emotions. In the water, I’m free. I’m not flesh and bones. I’m my own spirit. I literally imagine myself as an orb of energy that flows effortlessly with the movements of the water. My thoughts are instantly clear.
Recently, I read a blog post by Laura Hamilton, titled “The Spiritual Power of Water,” where she discusses how great of a role that water has played in the spiritual realm over many centuries. The example that stuck out to me the most was that of a baptisim, which is much like a rebirthing process for individuals of the Christian faith. This was powerful to me, because I always feel like a new person whenever I’ve finished a swim at the pool.
Water connects with the mind, in a way that allows for us to shed negativity, in order to leave room for better things to influence us.
The next time you go for a swim, make a conscious effort to release thoughts that hold you back. Don’t think too hard. Don’t miscontrue my previous statement about Christianity and think in terms of religion, but think in terms of yourself. Think of the positive things that you want for yourself, and the baggage of your thoughts that you wish to leave behind.
It’s about 4 in the morning, and I’m up. I know, we’ve all been there, but tonight has been different for me.
While lying here, with my cell phone screen being the only source of light in my room, past thoughts begin to flood my memory. They rush through like water from a broken pipe that was once held together by duct tape.
I mean, they are the type of memories that create this dull emotional pain that never seems to really go away, but just gets built upon over time.
Don’t you hate it when that happens?
So, like we all do in these situations, I begin to search the internet for anything uplifting that would take my mind off of all of the crap floating around my brain. After a few searches of things like “positivity,” “uplifting quotes,” and “meditating techniques,” I gradually start to feel better…and just like that, I’m inspired. Hey, why not start a blog? It would be cool to get some things off of my chest, as well as to share some great ideas on how to cultivate a more positive lifestyle. When I say “positive lifestyle,” I don’t just mean focusing on things pertaining to a spiritual nature, like meditation, but also on simple things that I do on a regular basis to brighten my day. As much as I would love to, I can’t promise uhhhmazing content, not only because I’ll most likely be posting while half asleep, but because I am extremely new at this. Not to mention, my punctuation sucks!
So for now, catch ya on my next post!