I don’t have a plan for this post tonight, but I will say that I have been feeling very angry lately. I’ve been spending quite some time alone these days, and some days I make great progress, but then tonight happens, and I want to kick and scream like the five year old child that still lives inside of me. It sucks, because just when I was feeling a bit stronger, just when I thought that I had everything all figured out, something gets in my way. As much as I want to forgive, I can’t. I feel like my anger keeps me safe, even though I know that’s not the case.
I’ve been angry for a long time, I’ve just always found a way to cope with it, whether it was with incessant laughter, or watching a good television show, I always found a way to distract myself from how I was feeling. I’m tired, though. I’m tired of being angry, so I just have to learn how to release and let go of all of my baggage.
Watch out for my future posts, because I’ll definitely be posting on this topic a lot more next week.