124- I’ve Decided To Leave Therapy

Where do I begin? I’ve been in therapy since September and it has been an okay experience. I was able to confront a lot of my childhood wounds throughout this process, which was great, but I knew from the beginning that the therapist was not. She’s a clinical counseling student (first year), who’s used to doing research and not dealing with people on this level. I knew from the start of the first couple of sessions that I wasn’t too crazy about her, but I stayed because I was in a shitty place in life, and at this point, I couldn’t do it alone–which I could have if I wasn’t so caught up in my mind. Now, I have finally gained enough clarity at this point to leave, and I’m so happy with my decision.

Here are the things about her that threw this whole process off for me:

  • She’s judgmental. The funny thing is, she doesn’t even have to say anything, I can see it all over her face.
  • She brought her personal life into the session, and made me feel uncomfortable in the process.
  • She forgets that I’m a college grad, who’s studying counseling as well, and she continuously makes my opinions feels invalidated.
  • It seems that at times, she’s looking for my validation.
  • She basically forced me to make a decision that I didn’t want to, basically breaking our trust early on. I kept going after that, though, because I told myself that I should have never said anything in the first place.
  • Lastly, I saw be super judgmental towards another client in the waiting room, who seemed to be suffering from severe anxiety. Like hello? Why make a face if she’s in the waiting room? Clearly she’s there for a reason! Okay, I had to get that off of my chest.

Guys, don’t be afraid to speak up in therapy, because you’re paying for it. The research and the techniques do not exist without people like us who go and seek out this type of help. Our stories fuel therapy. Don’t be afraid to ask for a new therapist (one with more experience than the last), or leave the facility all together if you’re not feeling the environment. 

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8 thoughts on “124- I’ve Decided To Leave Therapy

  1. I read your post with great interest as I am myself currently thinking of getting into some serious therapy for my anxiety disorders (I’m currently just making short visits to a psychiatrist for my treatment). Sounds to me like your concerns about your therapist are 100% justified, I really admire the inner strength you have to recognize your situation and take action. It does seem challenging to find a good therapist sometimes (thus my hesitation about the best way for me to proceed).

    Best wishes to you on your journey of mental wellness!

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    • I think that if you want the help, insight, and perspective, definitely go ahead and give it a try, but know that at the end of the day, you validate yourself, and you dont have to be uncomfortable just because you want the help. Best wishes to you too!

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